where's home?

So, I don't blog anymore and I hate that. I have so much to say, but it seems that only 25% is positive. I rather not pollute the world with negativity and with bitterness so I've kept my mouth shut.

But, life is not all bad. Things aren't all shit. Great things have been happening and I'm happy to announce that life is falling into place. I'm actually happy, and that my friends, is a huge accomplishment.

But unfortunately, through it all, DC hasn't felt completely right. Something about being home, hasn't really felt...like home. 

I read my good friend Clare's post this morning about "home" and I could really relate to it. You try and you try, but sometimes, no matter how hard you do, you have to just cash in your chips and call it a loss. Some places, just don't feel right. 

DC wasn't all bad. In fact, in retrospect, its been great. I have learned so much. I've made new friends. I added some great work experience on my CV. I've saved some cash. And of course, having my family near by has been the biggest WIN of all. I can't pot into words how much they mean to me. And the thought of leaving them pains me. KILLS me really. Who will give me big hugs when I get home and make me breakfast on Sundays and pick up my annoying "i'm so annoyed at work, please talk to me for 5 minute" phone calls? 

With that, some big things are happening and change is near. I'm scared shitless, but excited beyond words. I'm making changes and I'm proud to say that I'm following my heart and pursuing my dreams. And I'm not letting anyone stop me. I'm the girl with wings who always has to be flying. And in 9 days, I fly back to where my heart is. Back to where things feel right and I hope, that even one year later, they will continue to feel right. 

And if it doesn't, oh well. I tried. And I will never regret it. Better try and fail than not try at all. 

Comments

[amy]

i just moved home and its been amazing :) I know all your dreams will come true.

[pw]

SO glad you're back! Feeling kinda creepy... since I don't know you but I adore reading your blog & rooting for you from a far?