It's 5:35am and I'm at work. For the second day in a row.
Work has been incredibly busy and the pressure is unreal.
I'm working on assignments for 4 different specialists, and now have been put on a high priority assignment for the President of the Bank.
On one hand, I absolutely love the exposure. I've met with some incredibly high level people from all around the world and within my own organization.
But on the other hand, I always think back on: "how did I end up here?"
I miss Taiwan and my life out there more than I could ever put into words. I tell people every single day how much I miss it, but no one could ever truly fathom what I really feel on the inside. Every single morning when I wake up, my FIRST thought is always something related to Taiwan. Always. And no matter how busy my days get (and trust me, they've been ridiculous) I think about getting on the next plane out of here all day long.
And as the pressure and amount of stress and work amounts, I always think about running away - back to where my heart is. But for now, I have to take it one day at a time. And work my 12 hour days as if they're no big deal. And prove myself at this job and show them that I'm pretty bad ass when I put my mind to something. And just like my boss said, when she came into my office yesterday and realized the amount of work I have to do, I have to remember to just breathe.
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