ode to lovely: the way things are

Ok people. I am back for a quick second to say hello and happy December.

But I am not sure when I will find the time or energy to post again.

To tell you the absolute truth, I am not doing so well. Adjusting to life at home has been harder than expected and I'm just not handling all the ups and downs very well. I am straight-up NOT happy and find myself in one of the worst ruts of my life. I keep looking back on all the obstacles I have had to overcome in the last few years and yet, even through my darkest of days, I have never felt the way I do right now. The problem is I that lack motivation and giving up sounds so much easier than pushing forward.

But that is so NOT me. I have to keep remembering that I am not a quitter. I, my friends, am actually the biggest fighter of all time. Because lets remember that if I had not fought and pushed forward during all my uphill battles of the last 3.5 years, I would have NEVER survived all the shit experiences that came at me in Taiwan. So, I have to keep reminding myself that this crappy time is only temporary and one day (hopefully soon) I will find the strength to fight again.

But for right now, I have to take a break from it all and focus on myself and no one else.

I have been part of a pair, a duo, a couple, a pareja, a team, for I swear the last decade. Yep, FOREVER. So time to work on me and only me. Selfish you say? YES, totally selfish. And I hate selfishness. With a passion. But, it just has to be done.

But in the meantime I will leave you with two things that I currently love. That way this post isn't completely negative and gloomy. So here goes:

One. This top coat is a BIG winner. Love it. Did my nails at work just now and I kid you not, 5 min later, I was typing away with no problems. LOVE.

Two. This game has saved me. I am so addicted and I don't care. I love playing a few rounds before bedtime, and it also helped pass the time during my horrible jet-lag. Highly recommend.