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most likely my last day of work until 2012

Hello world. I'm writing from my cubicle and this will most likely be my last day of work until 2012. You see, my boss is gone. And he's been gone all week. He just never had the courtesy to tell me that he, in fact, would be gone. So, ladies and gentlemen: I am boycotting work until 2012. And for the first time in a really long time, I feel JOY.

The last few weeks/months have been tough. Really, really tough. And I know there will still be some tough days ahead. I am not in the Christmas spirit, I am dreading my 30th birthday, and most of all, New Years is a day I abhor and dread every single year. But once I mentally prepare myself for what lies ahead, I know I will be able to regain the strength needed to push forward and get over all the crap. Luckily, I have the best family in the world and they've been providing the necessary comfort and support that I need to get myself out of bed every morning. 

Today, my support came from my oh-so-adorable dad, who carpooled to work with me. You should have seen his face this morning as we, father and daughter, walked into the same office together, took the same elevator, and walked to our respective working areas. I went straight to my cube to start my daily routine of doing nothing - yay! And he ran off to attend a very important meeting of the IDB Retired Association, where he is currently holding the very important position of Secretariat. Go dad! 

So, the moral of my story is: My dad is awesome. So is my mom. And my sister. And my brother. And my cousins and aunts and uncles too. And although it feels like I've lost EVERYTHING I have worked hard for, I know that I have the one thing that is the most valuable of all: An amazing family. 

So yep. No work until 2012. And here's to starting over. One day at a time. 

the way things are

Ok people. I am back for a quick second to say hello and happy December.

But I am not sure when I will find the time or energy to post again.

To tell you the absolute truth, I am not doing so well. Adjusting to life at home has been harder than expected and I'm just not handling all the ups and downs very well. I am straight-up NOT happy and find myself in one of the worst ruts of my life. I keep looking back on all the obstacles I have had to overcome in the last few years and yet, even through my darkest of days, I have never felt the way I do right now. The problem is I that lack motivation and giving up sounds so much easier than pushing forward. 

But that is so NOT me. I have to keep remembering that I am not a quitter. I, my friends, am actually the biggest fighter of all time. Because lets remember that if I had not fought and pushed forward during all my uphill battles of the last 3.5 years, I would have NEVER survived all the shit experiences that came at me in Taiwan. So, I have to keep reminding myself that this crappy time is only temporary and one day (hopefully soon) I will find the strength to fight again.

But for right now, I have to take a break from it all and focus on myself and no one else. 

I have been part of a pair, a duo, a couple, a pareja, a team, for I swear the last decade. Yep, FOREVER. So time to work on me and only me. Selfish you say? YES, totally selfish. And I hate selfishness. With a passion. But, it just has to be done. 

But in the meantime I will leave you with two things that I currently love. That way this post isn't completely negative and gloomy. So here goes:

One. This top coat is a BIG winner. Love it. Did my nails at work just now and I kid you not, 5 min later, I was typing away with no problems. LOVE. 

Two. This game has saved me. I am so addicted and I don't care. I love playing a few rounds before bedtime, and it also helped pass the time during my horrible jet-lag. Highly recommend.