Today, I gave back the typewriter that matthew's mom had let me borrow the last 3+ years. It's been such a part of my artistic work in the past that I'm sad to see it go, BUT, it also makes me feel like this was the last part of matthew that was hanging on in my life, and now finally, it is gone. I gave it back this morning, and with that, I know I may never see him again. And frankly, I'm ok with that.
If its one thing i've learned since my breakup is that's its important to LET GO. To stop living in the past, and to stop hanging on to the what ifs, and the should have, could have, would haves, and to just simply MOVE ON. He was such an important person in my life at one point. I grew, I learned, and I became a better person while with him...and for that I am eternally grateful. But our story has ended, and we have gone different ways, and I hope I never see him again. I may change my mind one day, but I truly doubt it. I want my new life to be free of my exes, free of my past, and free of my mistakes. So, today, my friends, marks a very important day. The start of my new life, truly and 100% without my ex. I will celebrate by going to watch the opening game of the World Cup. Happy Friday!
Good for you.. I need to remember that as well.. we should have dinner sometime while you are home!
Posted by: Ali McLaughlin | June 11, 2010 at 08:18 PM
congratulations babe. :) i'm so proud of you.
Posted by: jasmine | June 14, 2010 at 06:39 AM
such a healthy attitude!! good for you :)
Posted by: cat | June 17, 2010 at 04:21 AM