reaching for something

Theres so much I want to do with my life. So much I want to accomplish. I want to travel the world. Get a great job somewhere different and exciitng. I want to make my parents proud of me, so that they know their hard work paid off. I want to live near my sister, always. I want to own a house, and decorate it to my liking. Simply put: I just want to live an inspired and happy life. But lately, all I keep thinking about how I want to fall in love again. And I want it to be for real this time. The goofy, giddy, stupid kind of love that makes you act out of control and happy beyond belief. I want to have romance in my life again. I want to dress up and go on dates. But most importantly, I want to take care of someone, and in turn feel taken care of. I wish I could stop these feelings, but lately I can't stop thinking about this. Probably because I'm no longer feeling 80/20 like I mentioned before but more like 95/5. Which means that 100% should be right around the corner. And maybe a cute boy will be too.