ode to lovely

they come and they go

Another weekend spent in the library like a total geek. I'm trying to study for my midterms and also trying to get ahead on some work. My mom and sister will be here in 6 days. One one hand, I couldn't be happier to see their faces and show them around my world. On the other hand, I'm kinda freaking out just thinking about managing my time between them and school. There's a lot going on in my life right now, mostly things that are turning my world upside down, but I'm doing my best to stay afloat. I have a hectic schedule ahead of me, and mostly an uphill climb, but I'm sure everything will work out in the end. I have to believe that things happen for a reason and that in the end, it will all be ok.

dear november, please be good to me

The longest week ever ended up with the hardest weekend ever. I've had a rough few days, with little tiny spurts of happiness here and there. If that makes any sense. I've barely slept. On average about 3-4 hours a day for the last 8 days. I'm exhausted, but I can't stop moving. I have so much to do, but no desire to do it. I'm constantly starving, but nothing sounds appetizing. I think I've lost like 4 lbs because of this and I hate it. I miss working out but I can't find time to do it. Nothing feels right and I don't know how to fix it. Oh the joys of growing up and growing stronger. I just hope November brings peace of mind and peace of heart.