frustration sets in

Greetings from what is both my bed and my office. With the exception of going out to dinner last night, I really haven't moved much from this location in last 36 hours. Today, I promised myself I would go outside for lunch and that I would eat something nutritious. Yeah...totally failed on that again. I can feel my body asking for fruits and vegetables and meat, but then laziness set in.

I've been feeling super frustrated today. I've searched so many job websites, sent my resume to what feel like pointless applications, and just felt so uninspired to keep moving forward. I feel like I've done so much but that I have nothing to show for it. And two weeks from today, I'll be flying back to Taiwan to re-analyze my life. My first 2 weeks here have flown by and I feel like the next 2 will too. I keep wondering if I will find a job and if all of this is even worth it.

Looking for a job is always tough. But it really does start to get to you after a while. There is only so much rejection that a person can take. And there comes a point where you to start to wonder, "is this all worth it?" Today, I hit that point. I have a weekend filled with informal interviews, dinners with friends of friends who say they want to help me, and a job fair too. But will anything come from all of this? Will it all be worth it? Or will I just wake up Monday morning with less money in my pocket, a few good memories, and still on this couch doing the same thing all over again?

But even though I feel so tired and defeated, I can't let this negative energy seep in. I need to stay positive and remind myself that eating ramen and sleeping on a couch will all be worth it one day. I'm lucky to even be doing this and the worse thing that can come from it is that I go home. And that, is not a bad thing at all.

Comments

[bahar]

Hang in there ! I'm sure you will be fine !!! Networking events and the informal interviews that you have are great...Headhunters are actually pretty goood !!! Don't let negative energy in at ALL - You are trying your best and know that everything happens for a reason !!! Maybe you will end up with something that is totalllllly worth the wait :)